Monday, March 06, 2006
redeemed 2 haagen daz vouchers a week plus ago. just received it. supposed to be used to reward myself and jx since he`s sick and stuff nowadays. however.. i think there`s a very low possibilty already. so i decided to reward myself and angela instead `cos this whole week she's here for me. haven`t got a good appetite the last one week. hopefully i will have the appetite to indulge tomorrow! by the way.. thanks to my friends who have been supporting me along the way, people like dar, pearl, angela, yujia and kl.. and to people who showed me concern. i`m actually still feeling extremely upset. i`m trying so hard to hide it sometimes. the more i laugh means the more upset i`m feeling, usually this case. but just let me be. i can`t describe the agony and helplessness inside me. i feel like icing myself to death so i`ll feel numb with the pain i`m going through. seriously, nobody can feel exactly how i feel, losing a love and losing a battle accademically at the same period of time. pouring cold water over a burning flame. this is it. when i think i`m burning at the peak, the cold water just splashed me wet and cold. and the flame died out instantly. i just feel that devastation`s just hovering about me and is going to hit me straight at the bull`s eye!
i want to fight for my own happiness because i think it`s worth the price. i`m willing to give up things just for you. u made it happened and now you denied my happiness. can you tell yourself what you want to do? `cos i`ve decided all i want is you. we are so near yet so far. i dreamt of you every other night and that`s no kidding about it. i`ve hit the point where i want you back so much yet my energies are all so drained. can you feel it??? i just want to be with you. i just want to build hapiness with you. i just hope you`ll wake up soon. i really want to see you smile as before again. reply me will you??
the song SAY YOU LOVE ME by QI DUO HUA says it all..
1:16 AM
redeemed 2 haagen daz vouchers a week plus ago. just received it. supposed to be used to reward myself and jx since he`s sick and stuff nowadays. however.. i think there`s a very low possibilty already. so i decided to reward myself and angela instead `cos this whole week she's here for me. haven`t got a good appetite the last one week. hopefully i will have the appetite to indulge tomorrow! by the way.. thanks to my friends who have been supporting me along the way, people like dar, pearl, angela, yujia and kl.. and to people who showed me concern. i`m actually still feeling extremely upset. i`m trying so hard to hide it sometimes. the more i laugh means the more upset i`m feeling, usually this case. but just let me be. i can`t describe the agony and helplessness inside me. i feel like icing myself to death so i`ll feel numb with the pain i`m going through. seriously, nobody can feel exactly how i feel, losing a love and losing a battle accademically at the same period of time. pouring cold water over a burning flame. this is it. when i think i`m burning at the peak, the cold water just splashed me wet and cold. and the flame died out instantly. i just feel that devastation`s just hovering about me and is going to hit me straight at the bull`s eye!
i want to fight for my own happiness because i think it`s worth the price. i`m willing to give up things just for you. u made it happened and now you denied my happiness. can you tell yourself what you want to do? `cos i`ve decided all i want is you. we are so near yet so far. i dreamt of you every other night and that`s no kidding about it. i`ve hit the point where i want you back so much yet my energies are all so drained. can you feel it??? i just want to be with you. i just want to build hapiness with you. i just hope you`ll wake up soon. i really want to see you smile as before again. reply me will you??
the song SAY YOU LOVE ME by QI DUO HUA says it all..
posted by SERENiFiED PRiNCESS on 1:16 AM
